Posted on June 26, 2012
Am I even on your mind?
There has been that nagging and inexplicable feeling again as if I have a rock at the bottom of my stomach or a lump in my throat. I guess it will always be like this when you’re trying to figure something (someone) out. When you’re lost and you don’t know where you stand or where you should go.
It’s like saudade – a deep longing or feeling of nostalgia for something that might not even be there. I can’t say I’m in love. Heck, I guess I haven’t been in love for more than a year. But I miss the idea of love. I miss feeling in love. And somewhere, I know I am feeling lovesick.
“I want to draw your picture, study every detail until everything feels as if I can map each detail like the back of my hand.”