has a new layout

After less than two days, I have come up with this new design for I got tired of my old dark background layout so I made this new one fresh and light. I hope you like it! 🙂

While the layout is new, I will still be working on the backend (mainly the CMS for the blog and updates), so some of the pages are still under construction and static. I would probably use jQuery to make a drop down menu for the navigation. Once I get things worked out, I will either make my podcasts public to everyone or set up a sign up form for people who’d like to listen.

I also added a new section to the site where I could feature links, charities, online shops, photos, books, etc. so I could introduce people to all the amazing stuff out there. It’s not an ad. I won’t get paid for promoting them. I just figured it could be a great way to let people know how they can help charities or fundraisers and at the same time introduce and help the people I think worthy to be recognized.

I know the site doesn’t contain much yet but I have big plans for this domain of mine. 😀

PS: I haven’t made a comment box for the entries yet but you can leave your comments or message on my contact page. Feel free to use that to contact me. 🙂

Christopher Gutierrez to Me

Christopher GutierrezWhat happened twelve hours ago seems so surreal right now and I don’t really know why it happened but it did. I was hoping for an e-mail from him if ever he received the letter but instead I got something better and I just feel so blessed and thankful right now.

I’m glad I stuck to my crazy stunt of writing him a letter and sending it through mail. Sometimes doing something crazy, out of the ordinary but meaningful makes it all worthwhile especially if you got what you wanted to achieve or received something even better than what you expected.

I am probably romanticizing things and being overly cheesy about it but I can’t get over it. I just can’t. It just made me want to challenge myself more and try and go out of my comfort zone and do a lot of things I haven’t done before because I was scared or hesitant to try doing them.

Chris isn’t exactly a role model if my parents would have their say but I look up to him because he knows himself. He knows what he believes in. And what he puts out there is real—whether it’s his written words or speakings— and that’s what I want to look up to: someone real and genuine and knows that he has made mistakes in the past and has learned from them; someone not afraid to admit he has made countless mistakes that he regrets having done up until today.

Chris is my rock and my crutch—someone that I listen to for more knowledge and information as well as opinion; someone that I listen to when I feel like I need to run another extra mile. He’s inspired me so much that what I have been writing and thinking about for the past week were thought about or inspired to be made because of him.

He thanked me for my words and my continuing support for him and I’ll thank him for every word and insight he has ever written to make me believe that I should do much more than what I am doing right now.

I’ll continue reading and listening to his words. I’ll continue supporting him for as long as I can. And I’ll continue to write of him or for him so I could share to the world the virtues or beliefs that he has enlightened me with.

Written on my physical journal on december 7, 2010 at half past two in the morning

Christopher GutierrezIt’s another one of those nights where I absolutely cannot go to sleep and something just rouses my senses even more. And the one thing that makes this moment a little bit high on edge than the other stuff that has happened to me is that right now I am absolutely starstruck and spazzing over someone I look up to.

I was actually beginning to fear that Chris might not ever receive the letter I sent him because I realized only a week ago that I misspelled a part of his address and everything that I hoped for would only go down the drain since he might never know I wrote him something.

Thank god I was wrong. He talked to me on Facebook chat a while ago. I really didn’t foresee it was going to happen because when I first heard that buzz or notification from Facebook chat I initially thought it might probably be [redacted] commenting about my podcasts or the webcam chat I recently put up. Turns out I was wrong. It was actually ChrisThe Christopher Gutierrez saying, “Hey you,” to me to strike up a conversation.

I totally spazzed. I think it was fortunate that only three people were watching my webcast because I know how stupid I looked when I found out that Christopher Gutierrez was actually talking to me.

I know it’s not really a big of a deal to other people but to me it is. It’s not every day that someone you look up to (who happens to be very far away and doesn’t even know you) would actually spare at least a bit of their time to tell you that they received your letter and they appreciate your words. It’s not so common but it happened to me and for that I feel special—blessed.

The main reason why I am writing this now even though I clearly need to be forcing myself to sleep is that what just happened is EPIC.

I know it’s not exactly like I actually met the guy in person. But to be able to sort of establish a connection and let that other person know that you exist is already something and perhaps he might actually remember me because I was the girl from the Philippines who wrote him a letter which had to be sent all the way to Chicago for him to read.

Perhaps I am thinking big again. But who knows, right?

One day I might be able to come to Chicago and meet him. No one really knows. But now I have to make things happen. Like he said, “Stay in school.” And I am going to get my diploma when this semester ends and I’ll start making my dreams come true after that. 🙂