They say happiness is a choice. But sometimes there are people like me who tend to gravitate to a certain kind of sadness—one that can’t clearly be explained but just felt. In moments like this, it is important to not let the sadness eat you up; to be able to rise above it with your head held high.
I was in a rut for a while. I was sad and lonely. I didn’t even know why I felt the way I felt but I did. Everyday felt like a fruitless search for something even though I had no idea what exactly I was looking for. I finally reached my saturation point and I realized I couldn’t keep going on like this.
Despite my self-deprecating nature, every day I try to look at myself in the mirror and tell myself I’m pretty. Every day, I try to tell myself I am worth it and that I am good enough. Every day I wake up and smile because it’s another day I get to live.
So to those of you who know what it feels like to not feel good enough, to not feel safe in your own skin, you’ll get through this. Believe that you can and you will. Let’s work on it together and rise above everything else.
I know that feeling. I have it good right now but I feel like I don’t deserve it at all. I was told I might be feeling survivor’s guilt in the aftermath of my dad’s death. My family had to make huge changes. I manage to turn myself around; they didn’t.
PS I love the outfit! The pants are so cute. 😀